I don't know who originated this quote, but it's annoying. And true.
If you've experienced loss, trauma, abuse, global pandemic?! It seems to be, that those feelings of anxiety, grief, trauma, rage, general unbalance, aren't actually going anywhere.
No matter how many THC gummies you eat, drinks you have, pills you pop, hours of social media you scroll, online shopping you do. Any amount of hours you spend digging into fixing someone else's issues (cheers to projection! Ha.)
Whatever clever coping trick, or projection you choose. Not "feeling" is creating a gunky layer within that will continue to build for years to come.
"Healing" sounds lovely doesn't it?
What we don't realize, is that healing is often just as shitty, or worse, than the shit we are healing from.
Trust me, I have three (ok 5) healing trauma books, all half read. At first, I closed those puppies as soon as I was required to start "feeling" or "acknowledging" - yuck, no thank you, isn't there a pill for this? Surely, eyelash extensions will solve this issue.
Feeling sucks. If you take a moment to allow it, a little bit each day. Sit with your discomfort. Label it. "I see I'm feeling un-easy...short-tempered...anxious"
Sit with it... Breathe.
Then find a way to move it out physically; moving meditation (yoga), dance, sing, lift some weights, run, walk, hike, cry, talk to a friend.
You will slowly become lighter and lighter.
There will be days that shit will creep in and feel terrible and so fresh as you heal ("they" call it "collapse").
Especially as you start allowing it and processing the why. Acknowledge it, allow it, do some healthy releasing. Send yourself to your room so you don't take everyone else down with you, and let the people around you know what you are about to embark on.
It WILL get better. That long-term better, the good kind.
Thinking of everyone processing something they cannot quite explain. This pandemic has a way of bringing up past trauma and experiences, and sometimes it's just felt bodily.
You're not alone in that.
Cheers to being mature and brave enough to face your own healing.
And if anyone needs a way to move it out! Join us Mondays and Thursdays 9am for some all levels flow.
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Sara Bylo is an ongoing student of Yoga. Specifically, the non-sectarian teachings from Baba Hari Dass through the Salt Spring Centre of Yoga (in Ashtanga Yoga with the roots in practical Hatha yoga )